La Beg Hen Limn

Anonymous asked: I don't miss you faaack awff you cunt

Allow it, go hurt my feelings why don’t you :/ just ask who you were. Is your name just Ano? 

I need to vent.

So me and my girlfriend broke up and i can’t sleep cause i need to just get it out and off my chest. Basically i still haven’t taken it in properly, like my whole world just feels so surreal, like i feel that we haven’t broken up, like I’m still not fully aware or understand why we broke up. I feel indifferent to everything. I just don’t care. I thought that i would be allot more upset about it but, I’m not… if I’m honest i don’t know what i should be feeling. I’m not happy, but never am i really upset. I do miss her so much, i hate the thought of other guys being with her, it makes my stomach churn if I’m honest. I bare want to call her. I don’t even know what I’m saying. I know i what be able to handle it, i don’t know to be honest. i do love her. But obviously she wasn’t happy and she had to make a change. i can’t hold that against her. I feel just have to come to grips with that she is going to shag other guys and deal with it like a man. It’s not like I’m gonna go celibate  either. I don’t see myself caring for another girl tho. it would just be a sex ting. no long ting ever. I want to be apart of her life. she said on the phone that like she still wants to see me and its okay if i come to her house still. like how the fuck does that work? I couldn’t do that. it would feel so weird not lying in the same bed as her. I wonder if she will invite me to her house party that she was going to have. I just watch Project X and i was rad. Everything around me makes me think of her now aswell. like Marmite… certain songs… bbq’s just things that don’t make sense to me. I hate the idea of me just waking up one day and it hitting me. She was so much fun. i think we were together for like 6 months. not as long as i expected tbh but a great 6 months i’ve change so much as a person now because of her and for the better like i used to have mad angry issues and she trained me well (only she will get this) I don’t know if she’ll see this. I’m not gonna be like her troll check this out i’ve blogged about you. She does have a tumblr i don’t know if she still uses it. I don’t think i’ll be able to call her for awhile. i hope she calls me tho. i really do. I miss her so much. this isn’t working. i’m litarly writing whats going threw my head. i went to a party tonight it was shit. but there was a girl there i chatted to her thought about taking her home, either way i wasn’t bothered i just wanted to be close to someone and pretend that she was her. She always told me that i need to spend more time with my uni friends and now i can. I can’t help feel this is to easy for her. like she doesn’t care. should could get with any man she wanted to. She said we shouldn’t off got together when we did to early she hadn’t gotten over her last ex. needed sometime to herself maybe she was right. but I’m so happy she gave us the chance, and M if ever you read this, thank you for everything. i had so much fun. I’m sorry that it didn’t work out like I’m gonna say we, but i wanted it to. I learn’t my lesson and don’t want to wear it out but i do love you so much. I hate the idea of waking up one day it hitting me that we’re not together, i think i’ve take it really badly. Thank you for letting me meet G she is a lovely girl, I’m so happy i could call her friend for the time that i could. The truth is i loved being close with her. I love that for a short period i was hers and she was mine. I don’t think my feelings for you will ever change that’s my problem and i’ll deal with it. I want us to be friends, maybe one day we might try again but you will find somebody else, i guy that is everything I’m not. I’ll miss Jason and your rents. If my calculations are right you’ll be in Cornwall right about now. I hope your having a great time. I sent back the vacuum pack thing before we broke up don’t take it as a sign that i don’t want to be friends i do. i can’t help the feeling that you didn’t try. I hope one day we might just have a massive chat clear shit up. Couldn’t we be like one of the friends that just sleep in the same bed haha. Since being with you i’ve learnt how to just hind my feelings punch them into submission. I just don’t care about anything right now. I wanna get fucked up. Smoke so something bad, do a billion lines of something else really bad, drop a couple pills, fuck myself of drink. Project X is such a good film i real enjoyed it. Well this just isn’t working and my mac is about to die. so peace NIGGAHS!! 

Anonymous asked: i really really miss you :(

who are you?